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Searching…
Where I Belong
Once in awhile, I look around
Take some time to think about
What I am, who I am, what I should do?
Am I as happy as I’ve told you?
Am I who you thought you knew?
I feel trapped inside myself and can’t climb out.
Chorus:
I need to find where I belong
Or at least find out what’s wrong
Am I among my own kind?
Or have I been living a lie?
It started when I saw the difference
Witnessing my brothers’ preference
For violence and not kindness
Questioning beliefs I’ve held
For years and years I knew them well
Is it my “family” or my friends that know the real me?
(Chorus.)
Scattered light on a twilit horizon
Guides me through the shadows
I push on with a shattered spirit
I hear your voices calling me home
Your voices call me home
I know where I belong
I know what has been wrong
I’ve been among my own kind
It was my appearance that’s a lie…
It was my appearance that’s a lie.
Stages
Time has come again for another lesson
On my knees, hands together, tears fall in confession
Soft candle light blooms but still illuminates
A life building chronicle on which I will ruminate
Don’t underestimate the power and the force
Brought forth by a voice, I can’t determine the source
Of course the idea is now that this voice will somehow
Cause me to be the best so all will bow
Chorus:
Split upon the rack of our own desires
Turning on the spit of life’s hot fire.
Passing a hurdle just brings us to the next
The race isn’t over until we’ve all met death.
Door opens with a groan, echoing thoughts I was alone
This other person kneels, somber, past of sins to atone
Should I reach out, is this what friendship is about?
Why do I doubt, in other situations I would shout?
Devout muscles start to tense, I close my eyes in a defense
Another creak of the door, and now my hands are tightly clenched
The Waxing candle glow reveals that on my other side
A pink bow tied to a girl who’s face has not dried…
(Chorus.)
We’re all in stages…
(Repeat one more time.)
Then the thought struck me that we’re a holy trinity
All of life encapsulated on the knees of us three
The girl to my right, she represents the hope
The desire to do more, to climb higher on the rope.
I’m in confusion, when I cannot climb higher
Should I be honest, humble or a cheat and a liar?
The person to my left has no more tears to be wept
Inside him are shreds of lies and secrets he should’ve kept…
(Chorus.)
We’re all in stages…
(Repeat 3 more times.)
Tell Me So I Know
A tear in my eye
Falls from the sky
Is this my feeling
Or is it projected on me?
Tell me, tell me so I know
Tell me, tell me so I know
Am I just a shadow
My head hits the pillow
Do I feel it?
Is this even real?
Tell me so I know
Tell me so I know
All the voices that surround me
Want converts to their philosophy
They speak for individuality
But only for their narrow realities
Nevermind, I think I know Nevermind, I think I know
White Knights
Stay true to yourself
It’s what they always say
But there’s more to honor
No black or white: it’s gray
A selfless persona
Clinging so it can’t get away
You live to serve those who’ve helped you
What if you’re in the way?
Chorus:
A kink in the armor
Of the white knights,
Misguided children who are
Always in fights
Help those who don’t need it
All for your selfish pride
Blind to the chaos you cause
Unwanted hero who won’t stand aside
Sometimes you get beaten down and fried
(Chorus, repeat twice.)
Like a snow on a summer day
Blocking the warmth of the sun
Not a needle in the hay
(Chorus, repeat twice.)
Always starting the fight…
Internal Affairs
Wake up to another day
There’s still some part that’s gray
Old or new, there’s always some pain
Bringing the question “what’s to gain?”
Chorus:
Every time it seems that there’s peace… for awhile
We seem to seek the things that bring us down
In life
We fight…
We all want to win our wars
Caught in your shell
Your special personal hell
Inside the walls you’ve raised
Mirroring your own judging gaze
Can’t you see?
You’re your own enemy
(Chorus, repeat twice.)
If you think that you are better
Then you should know that you have already lost the war
Change
Sun-beating down upon my back
I walk barefoot on the sands
The sweat stings my eyes
And I’m blinded by the skies
Why am I here, what does this mean
Is this all just a terrible dream?
Or is my mind telling me
That this is what my life’s become?
Should I be changing?
Get locked in to the system
Hypnotized by imperfection
Locked in a personal cage
But your soul is telling you to change.
They say expand upon the theme
But kill your thoughts to help the team
Take out problems on those you love
Then they leave and now you’re alone
This happens more than we’d admit
No one comes to start changing it
Go insane, or decay with time
Ask “is this what my life’s become?”
WE SHOULD BE CHANGING!
Get locked in to the system
Hypnotized by imperfection
Locked in a personal cage
But your soul is telling you to change.
(Don’t) Just do what you’re told…
(Repeat 6 more times.)
WE ALL ARE CHANGING!
WE ALL ARE CHANGING!
Get locked in to the system
Hypnotized by imperfection
Locked in a personal cage
But your soul is telling you to change.